trying my best to find some happiness and joy in my loneliness. the only person who can fulfill me is myself. having depression and anxiety and always ending up alone because people just don’t care enough or misinterpret you is tiring and only leaves me wanting to disappear or smthg. but I’m so tired, I’m learning to take care of myself and look out for me gently when no one else cares to even ask. everything hurts so much but not as much when you’re there for yourself, to boost yourself up, to cry, to give yourself a hug and stand back up… The more I feel this the more I want to observe my feelings and thoughts, because it’s so obvious how some triggers make me act and I could have more control over what and how affects me. I just gotta be there for myself… And fall in love with myself
